Random Ramblings

I'm for some reason incredibly tired today. I don't feel good, I'm wondering if it's just something I ate or if I'm actually getting sick. I have half a mind to just curl up in bed and watch movies all day and fall asleep off and on. But our computer in the bedroom isn't working yet, so that's not really going to happen. I've already taken an hour and a half nap and it's not even 1pm. I should go running and see if I can shake some of this off. But alas, I don't want to. I will probably make myself do it later, just not yet.

Over the last few days, I've finished many of my little knitting projects and haven't found anything exciting enough to want to start up with the yarn that I currently have. And as I implied, I really don't want to do anything today - so going to my local Walmart, Michael's and/or Yarn Supplies is just out of the question. Let's not forget the giant to do list of things that I want to accomplish before Greg comes home on R&R - haha - also not happening at this rate! (Goodness, I don't really have that long before he's home - if I want anything on that list to really get done - I've got to get cracking on it!!!)

I miss Greg a lot the last few days. And the anticipation of leave coming soon is just brutal. Oh, I did find a cute outfit to wear when I go to meet him at the airport. So I guess that's one thing that got done off the list yesterday. I'm so nervous about seeing him again. I've noticed some changes in him that I didn't expect - so I'm just afraid that there will be more changes that I haven't seen yet. I guess I'm wondering if I'll really still know him anymore. I also know that I've made a number of changes to myself since he's been gone, I guess I'm also wondering if he'll really know me any more. Maybe I should think of this R&R differently, instead of a chance to get back to "normal" for a while, it's actually a chance to love on each other and get to know each other again - basically touch base - about midway through this deployment adventure. I'm confused and concerned honestly, it seems like we're both moving in oposite directions right now - I'm doing everything I can to get my life in order and Greg's kind of let himself go a bit. Oh, we'll see what happens won't we. Life and marriage is a real adventure and the only thing we know for sure is that we can trust God to work all things together for our good.

I kind of feel discouraged. This week on band is a really difficult one. We're really doing 5 new songs for the band and for the congregation. I made a point to practice hard before band practice this week. And I had just an awesome practice on my own a few hours before band. And band just stunk. Grrr.... I don't really know what to do with it. I just hope that Sunday is better than practice.

Eh - I just looked at the weather online. It's supposed to get up to 71 today - is it really January? I really should get out and at least go for a walk today. Maybe I should go to a park and make an event of my run today. The weather's just too nice to waste inside wondering if you're sick and just being/feeling lazy.

Sitting here trying to come up with more things to write about certainly isn't getting me very far. I better go and try to get something accomplished today.

Sigh....